Thursday, 27 March 2008

To Alice, with love



the last line from the last letter I received from Alice

My beautiful best friend Alice died on this day 3 years ago. I miss so much about her. But mostly her just being here. To talk to, to laugh with, to write to. We used to write to each other all the time. When I lived overseas, and even when we lived in the same city. Now, I keep buying stationery which is spilling out of my desk drawer. I wish I could write to Ali now.


Dear Ali

I miss you. So very much.

I have moments when it feels like time is whizzing by at lightening speed and other moments when it feels like everything is in slow motion.

I have moments when I can clearly hear your voice in my head saying "Hi Sarah", and other moments when it feels like I am losing my memory of your features. Your fine fingernails, your white teeth, your lovely hair.

You still continue to inspire me. I wish I could share blogland with you! You would love it. I'm glad I named my blog a name we both liked.

I feel like part of me left with you but I know I will always carry you in my heart.

There are so many things I wish I could tell you. I need you to tell me everything will be ok.

I always think of us.

Love you long time my sweet friend

SJM xxx

5 comments:

alyson. said...

oh Sarah, I can't tell you I know what it's like to loose a best friend, but I do know how it feels to miss some one so much. it's hard. but at least you have her memory! :)

Paige said...

Sarah, I am so sorry for your loss. I recently lost my dad and I know what it is like to walk around with a hole in your heart. i am thinking of you.

xoxo

laceyJ. said...

This was such a sweet tribute...

Anna said...

Sarah- I know how hard it is lose a good friend.
A close friend of mine died about six years ago and I swear that there is not a day that goes by without me thinking about her...
it is great that you have some good memories to try and keep fresh, and that you have taken the time to write a tribute and to share it with others.
Take care,

Anna

amy said...

i lost someone very dear to me a few years ago too, it feels like i have a hole in my heart sometimes and a giant lump in my throat. i'd give you a hug... but you know... different country xx